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ryslig, round 2
Jun. 30th, 2020 06:01 pmOOC INFORMATION
Name: Kari
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Are You Over 18?: Yep.
Other Characters: n/a
CHARACTER INFORMATION
Character Name: Madoka Kaname
Age: 18, thanks to her time in Ryslig.
Canon: Puella Magi Madoka Magica
Canon Point: Third displayed timeline, post-death.
Character Information: A summary of Madoka's life within canon can be found here.
As for how Ryslig impacted her: hoo BOY, that's gonna be a long one. I'll try to narrow down the most impactful things as simply as possible:
Hoo, boy! That about covers it, as long as you ignore all the targeted trauma living in Ryslig brought in the first place. Why would you do that? Because we're going to bring that up in about two line breaks!
Personality: Madoka is a kind young woman who cries as easily as she laughs, hugs her friends tight when they need it, and willingly gives up her life to save other lives. She is also the dying soldier who asks her best friend to kill her, the archer who shoots her friend and mentor without hesitation, and - after years on the Ryslig peninsula - the demon who first venerated the Fog's name. How does she justify these things? How can she live with her own hypocrisy?
Are these things actually contradictions?
Let's rewind for a moment. Madoka is selfless to a fault, even in worlds that have done nothing but punish her for it. When she is teetering on the edge of despair, it is because of the idea that she has brought more harm to others than good; when she effectively ascends to godhood, it is because only a god could handle the monstrous kindness of a wish and a will like hers.
And yet this kindness and generosity is tested over and over again. She is forced to kill her mentor in a split-second decision; can she save lives by taking one? She hurts her best friend beyond compare, to the point of nearly breaking her, by requesting an assisted suicide before she mutates; can she cause less pain actively than would be made as a monster? Madoka is soft, gentle and kind, yes, but for all that she is calculating - a constant moral calculus as she tries to do what is best for the world around her.
And nowhere is this calculation more clear than her actions on the Ryslig peninsula. She has killed before, and may kill again - because to turn a blind eye to the hunger is to kill even more through your own inaction. She has struck a deal with the Fog, asked that she do everything in her power to keep the monsters from going home - because if they are truly monsters now, better to only drag down one world than countless ones. She became the priestess of the Fog through a selfless act, recreating the marker of missing monsters through ritual self-sacrifice - because in a world that was happy to act cruelly in the Fog's name, perhaps kindness was what was necessary in the end. Even one of the deals she struck with the Fog, the ability to feed on people's fear and torment, was done so that she could survive completely nonlethally.
None of this is to say she hasn't changed, of course. As a waldgeist, she learned what it meant to truly feel greedy and gluttonous, and spent three years holding it at bay. As a demon, she's been struck hard by corruption and three and a half years of missing hormonal development. Anger, sinful inclination, impulsivity, sadism - these are all things she's had to learn to cope with, to varying degrees of success.
But in the end, she's still Madoka, somehow. And if the human named Madoka Kaname was able to be kind, well-meaning, and still able to do things of great enormity when the greater good called for it...
Well, aren't monsters supposed to be even stronger?
5-10 Key Character Traits:
- Selfless
- Loving
- Idealistic
- Resolute
- Freely emotive
- Insecure
- Needs direction in life
Would you prefer a monster that FITS your character’s personality, CONFLICTS with it, EITHER, or opt for 100% RANDOMIZATION? Conflicts. (See opt-out note.)
Opt-Outs: None necessary - she's a reapp, and I'd like to keep her Demon assignment!
Roleplay Sample: TDM. (Please note that this was before I asked about keeping her Fog-related boons and status, so it doesn't reflect entirely on how she'll be returning!)
Name: Kari
Contact:
Are You Over 18?: Yep.
Other Characters: n/a
CHARACTER INFORMATION
Character Name: Madoka Kaname
Age: 18, thanks to her time in Ryslig.
Canon: Puella Magi Madoka Magica
Canon Point: Third displayed timeline, post-death.
Character Information: A summary of Madoka's life within canon can be found here.
As for how Ryslig impacted her: hoo BOY, that's gonna be a long one. I'll try to narrow down the most impactful things as simply as possible:
- Showed up immediately after dying and was forced to confront her new afterlife
- Dug up and ate part of a body, turned into a wendigo, isolated herself in the forest
- Found Homura and Mami arriving as humans, had to take them under her wing as the only veteran monster
- Visited Dyster and became a Fog adept; was gifted a necklace by an avatar of the Fog
- Slowly grew accustomed to life; opened a bakery with Mami
- Began to rise in standing with the Fog, with the goal of "keeping the monsters in Ryslig to avoid harming other worlds"
- Began a relationship with Mami, who dropped a few months later, then rebounded to Xion
- Became the first Fog priest
- Became a monster a second time - specifically, a demon
Hoo, boy! That about covers it, as long as you ignore all the targeted trauma living in Ryslig brought in the first place. Why would you do that? Because we're going to bring that up in about two line breaks!
Personality: Madoka is a kind young woman who cries as easily as she laughs, hugs her friends tight when they need it, and willingly gives up her life to save other lives. She is also the dying soldier who asks her best friend to kill her, the archer who shoots her friend and mentor without hesitation, and - after years on the Ryslig peninsula - the demon who first venerated the Fog's name. How does she justify these things? How can she live with her own hypocrisy?
Are these things actually contradictions?
Let's rewind for a moment. Madoka is selfless to a fault, even in worlds that have done nothing but punish her for it. When she is teetering on the edge of despair, it is because of the idea that she has brought more harm to others than good; when she effectively ascends to godhood, it is because only a god could handle the monstrous kindness of a wish and a will like hers.
And yet this kindness and generosity is tested over and over again. She is forced to kill her mentor in a split-second decision; can she save lives by taking one? She hurts her best friend beyond compare, to the point of nearly breaking her, by requesting an assisted suicide before she mutates; can she cause less pain actively than would be made as a monster? Madoka is soft, gentle and kind, yes, but for all that she is calculating - a constant moral calculus as she tries to do what is best for the world around her.
And nowhere is this calculation more clear than her actions on the Ryslig peninsula. She has killed before, and may kill again - because to turn a blind eye to the hunger is to kill even more through your own inaction. She has struck a deal with the Fog, asked that she do everything in her power to keep the monsters from going home - because if they are truly monsters now, better to only drag down one world than countless ones. She became the priestess of the Fog through a selfless act, recreating the marker of missing monsters through ritual self-sacrifice - because in a world that was happy to act cruelly in the Fog's name, perhaps kindness was what was necessary in the end. Even one of the deals she struck with the Fog, the ability to feed on people's fear and torment, was done so that she could survive completely nonlethally.
None of this is to say she hasn't changed, of course. As a waldgeist, she learned what it meant to truly feel greedy and gluttonous, and spent three years holding it at bay. As a demon, she's been struck hard by corruption and three and a half years of missing hormonal development. Anger, sinful inclination, impulsivity, sadism - these are all things she's had to learn to cope with, to varying degrees of success.
But in the end, she's still Madoka, somehow. And if the human named Madoka Kaname was able to be kind, well-meaning, and still able to do things of great enormity when the greater good called for it...
Well, aren't monsters supposed to be even stronger?
5-10 Key Character Traits:
- Selfless
- Loving
- Idealistic
- Resolute
- Freely emotive
- Insecure
- Needs direction in life
Would you prefer a monster that FITS your character’s personality, CONFLICTS with it, EITHER, or opt for 100% RANDOMIZATION? Conflicts. (See opt-out note.)
Opt-Outs: None necessary - she's a reapp, and I'd like to keep her Demon assignment!
Roleplay Sample: TDM. (Please note that this was before I asked about keeping her Fog-related boons and status, so it doesn't reflect entirely on how she'll be returning!)
