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CHARACTER NAME: Madoka Kaname (鹿目まどか) AGE: 14 (born October 3) CANON: Puella Magi Madoka Magica CANON POINT: Third timeline, post-death CHARACTER INFORMATION: Wiki VERDICT: ACCEPTED Personality Traits

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Personality: So let's start this off with a quick acknowledgement: I'm apping Madoka from a timeline where things go a fair deal differently for her (in almost universally negative ways). Because of this, I'll be establishing her base personality shown in the final timeline - how she acts before she contracts with the Incubators - and only afterwards describe how this specific Madoka's circumstances have changed her.

Madoka Kaname, when she's first introduced, appears to be a fairly average young girl. She cries as easily as she laughs, and she's the kind of person to grab her friend's hands or just hug them tight on a whim. She hangs around with her two close friends, listens to pop and enka in her spare time, and does her homework - not always well, mind you. She has a loving relationship with both parents and her little brother, and about the biggest thing she has to worry about is whether or not she'll ever amount to anything (and maybe if she'll get a love letter of her own).

It's when Kyubey finally calls to her that she is drawn into conflict, and it is in conflict that her true character shines through. Despite having no powers of her own (for a show literally named "magical girl Madoka Magica," she sure takes her sweet time getting there), Madoka does everything she can to watch out for her friends. Some of this is obvious, like the moral support she offers; however, she even sticks around during battles just in case she needs to make a contract to save a friend. When it comes down to it, Madoka is willing to sell her soul into a painful life of battle (and later, to even become a witch) if it means saving the life of another.

And this selflessness isn't just restricted to her friends. When she finally does make her wish - a tremendous one, one that effectively allows her to shoulder the burden of every magical girl that has existed and ever will - she does so without dwelling on the pain it will cause her or the power it will bring. To her, all that matters is that all the girls who have fought before her shouldn't be punished for their dreams. She is supremely idealistic - willing to trade her material existence for a chance at hope for all others, and to do it all with a smile. After all, if she can make a miracle like that come to fruition, it's worth any pain it might bring, right?

Still, this willingness to take action comes with its own problems. When Madoka doesn't have something to fight for, or some way to fight for it, she doesn't have much confidence or even sense of self. She talks throughout the series how nice it would be to be worth something, or to have something she could actually do; she even (briefly) considers making a wish just to be a magical girl early on.

Now, Madoka's canon point - the third timeline of the show - makes a bit of a difference in a few important ways. For one, Madoka makes a contract very early into the loop, and as such doesn't have to deal with as much of her "no purpose" issues for very long. The biggest change, however, is a direct result of the events of the timeline. Sayaka becomes a witch, Mami snaps and tries to kill the other three girls (intending to kill herself afterwards), and Madoka is the one to shoot and kill her first.

This forces Madoka into a different direction of development; even though she's always been capable of doing what needs to be done, personally killing a close friend (one who is still human and conscious, at that) is too much for her. She only barely manages to keep going thanks to the incoming Walpurgis Night; after all, if she gives up hope there, she'll be taking Homura with her. Once she and Homura defeat the great witch, she lies to Homura for the first time (tricking her into taking the last grief seed) and even gives her first "selfish" request of the series: she wants Homura to go back and time and stop her from being tricked by the Incubators. None of this is done out of cruelty or true selfishness, of course; Madoka wants to create a world where her friends can be happy, even if she knows she won't be around to see it.

And so, by the end of the third timeline - when she asks Homura to kill her before she becomes a witch, and Homura tearfully obliges - Madoka has lost a great deal of the innocence she brought with her. She's killed a close friend in self defense, she's seen two other friends die horrible deaths, and she's even put a horrible burden on the one friend she has left. Her words are quiet and hesitant, almost back to how she sounded before she became a magical girl and gained some confidence, and she is able to understand for the first time just how harshly she and her friends have been lied to. But even with all of that, she still holds her ideals to her dying breath. She doesn't ask to die out of sadness or penance, but out of love for the world around her - because even if that world has such unspeakably awful things in it, there's still too much worth protecting to allow herself to hurt any of it.

Because even if this Madoka is filled with regrets, and even if she's seen more than any fourteen year old should ever have to, she is still the same young woman who cries as easily as she laughs.

5-10 Key Character Traits:
- Selfless
- Loving
- Idealistic
- Resolute
- Freely emotive
- Insecure
- Needs direction in life

Would you prefer a monster that FITS your character’s personality, CONFLICTS with it, or EITHER? I'd prefer a monster that conflicts with Madoka's personality!
Opt-Outs: Kelpie, Goblin, Manticore, Werewolf, Werebear